bailey breakthrough

I realize this was covered...

2007-12-12T19:23:36Z

UsWeekly reports that a moronic French movie producer wants to cast Britney Spears as the Virgin Mary in his new movie satire called "Sweet Baby Jesus." He plans to start shooting in March and said Britney is currently looking over the script.

I hope he gave her a script on tape, because bitch can't read.

Brit would play a 19-year-old (HA!) pregnant girl unsure of her baby's paternity. She goes into labor on Christmas eve in Bethlehem, Maryland with people in town saying the baby's birth is Jesus Christ's second coming.

It will be Jesus Christ's second coming if Brit plays the Virgin May. JC would make an encore appearance just to slap Britney straight for trying to play his mama.

beforewecrash @ 2007-09-24T09:02:00

2007-09-24T16:04:26Z

switch yourselves over to ohminotaur if you haven't already.

you shall be blessed by salt and sea.

samantha jo! switch! and comment so I know who you are?

beforewecrash @ 2007-08-13T13:24:00

2007-08-13T20:30:28Z

things that are better:

- I have a job.
- there is cash in my wallet.
- I have re-kindled friendships.
- I got re-hired at starbucks.
- my credit card is paid off.

things that are worse:

- chris and I are falling apart. [both seperately and together]
- I start starbucks again tomorrow.
- I'll be working 8A-1A tomorrow. :[
- I haven't made art in months.
- I have no phone.
- I have begun to drink heavily.

beforewecrash @ 2007-07-29T22:33:00

2007-07-30T05:33:27Z

I didn't take any pictures in SF.

I really ought to kill myself.

beforewecrash @ 2007-07-29T08:24:00

2007-07-29T15:24:58Z

going to SF todayyyyy. mhm! I miss my city.

beforewecrash @ 2007-07-22T18:22:00

2007-07-23T01:26:52Z

I spent every day/night of my last week in Santa Rosa with Chris and/or reading. Hectic packing/cleaning on Friday. I'm worn out.

It was the hardest thing I've ever done, saying goodbye to him. ..even though we've been broken up for almost a month now. we don't act like it. we only did the first 2.5 weeks. and then...one night with the help of Blue Moon, we feverishly fell back into eachother.

we just sat next to eachother crying for two hours.
and then I drove away. I have never wanted to drive
slow in my entire life. not until yesterday. wanted
to stay as close to him as possible for as long as
I could. it's a sad, sad day when "I love you" and
"goodbye" are both spoken so very honestly. :[

we're still faithful. which is wierd, I guess, to understand.

beforewecrash @ 2007-07-12T12:27:00

2007-07-12T19:29:07Z

things I hate today:

- not having MS word.
- not having a job.
- looking for a job.
- moving in 1 week.
- not having money.
- not havine a PONY.
- not getting kisses.
- waiting on jobs.

beforewecrash @ 2007-07-12T08:31:00

2007-07-12T15:33:50Z

I can't wait to have enough money to see HP.
but thankfully, I only have 9 more days until
my copy of Deathly Hallows gets hurrr.

I love my niece. I just finished making her
a sweet ass book of pictures from her first
birthday. it's tote-able so her mom can bring
it around and brag about miss mackenzie!

gracious. time to go find a job.

beforewecrash @ 2007-07-10T14:40:00

2007-07-10T21:44:20Z

- my cats are getting spay/neutered.
- I am deathly bored and learning german.
- Chris is moving out within the next three days.
- my roommate and Chris had a HUGE fight this
morning and are no longer on speaking terms.
- I wish I had reliable internet @ the apt.
- I dyed my hair brown/black [it's lovely!]
- I don't have a USB cord because I am dumb.
- picture posts will resume sometime tomorrow.

I have been rambling lately. on and on about
this horribly complicated and drawn-out breakup.

I'm sorry, dear friends. I've been frightful.

beforewecrash @ 2007-07-09T14:02:00

2007-07-09T21:07:10Z

oh gracious. chris and I accidentally fooled around.
I didn't kiss him...I couldn't bear to feel his lips
on mine again...but he started kissing my neck and I
melted. things got a little more escalated than I
anticipated...and he ended up angry and frustrated
and smoking weed like a fiend on the porch. :[

I passed out on my bed with Howie. he found me asleep
with the lights on at 3A. he put blankets over me and
got in bed beside me. it was nice. thinking about it
is hard to do. because I love him and I want him but
he isn't ready for me. gracious. why do I have to be wise?

beforewecrash @ 2007-07-08T16:21:00

2007-07-08T23:21:40Z

I want to share the pictures I took at my nieces birthday party!!
...but it appears that I've gone and left my USB in Lodi. :[

Chris and I are still living together. we will be until Wednesday or
Thursday when he moves next door into his OWN apartment with
a friend of his. gracious. he still demands my time like we're together.
and it's hard to deny him because I DO still feel attached. :[[

I'll be officially moved into a barn by the 21st. two hours away from here. :[
really really don't want to move, but saving money for school will be alright.

beforewecrash @ 2007-07-04T12:51:00

2007-07-04T20:02:47Z

hark, things are dramatic. of course.
and I just might be movin' and shakin'
back into my parents house. :] since
I'm unemployed, single, and my rent
just went up $200...I don't see any
other options. and I need to be savin'
up to move to MA for school next year.

perhaps moving into the studio in my
parents' barn wouldn't be too bad. I'd
be surrounded by old, familiar friends
and I'd still have dear howard allen dean
to keep my little heart company.

underage drinking at chili's? AWESOME.
being thrown into a pool fulling clothed
by a mysterious and stereotypical black man? GLORIOUS.

beforewecrash @ 2007-07-02T11:25:00

2007-07-02T18:28:10Z

this is getting annoying. all I want to do is fall into his arms. boooo radly.

OH. and I lost my job today. David actually wanted me to sign a fucking paper. I refused. I'm dressing up and going to unemployment because this is BULLSHIT. he make Yuri call me because he "has nothing to say" to me.

HAHAHAHAA. fuck them. I'm going out of town for a couple days...because I just can't keep looking at his stuff in my room. he says it will be out by the 5th...so I'll be gone until then. he left me a letter when he came by this morning. I wasn't here because I slept over somewhere else.

this is going too far. it needs to be over. my mom yelled at me for reading the letter. but what was I SUPPOSED to do?

I am still wearing his ring. debating if I should give it back or not.

beforewecrash @ 2007-07-01T21:25:00

2007-07-02T04:27:23Z

I can't wait until all his stuff is out of my apartment and I can finally fucking move on. today was hard. but it's over. and he almost wore me down enough to take him back last night...but I gathered my strength.

mhm. I need to buy cigarettes. dad doesn't want me staying at the apartment tonight because he newly figured out that not only has chris been in prison, but he also owns a glock 40cal. haha. I took the gun earlier when he was being really crazy, and he made me return it.

...but not before I took allll his bullets.

beforewecrash @ 2007-07-01T01:39:00

2007-07-01T08:43:26Z

I am such a silly girl. and I'm scared and
confused about chris. I really love him. I
couldn't bear seeing him so wrecked. he's still
not staying over at my/our apartment and we're
going to do a bit more talking and working
things over in our heads tomorrow when he's
off work. so we'll see how everything goes.

how do you tell a boy that you love him, but
you don't want to live with him? I guess we
can't adequetly know eachother after 4 months.

I'm going to propose we start fresh. there's a
lot more going on between us that neither of us
ever talked about. and I'm not going to keep
paying the price because his last relationship
was really fucked up. and I'm going to stop
being such a push-over. oh gracious. I talked
EVERYONE's ear off about this. and now I'm reverting.

love is pretty damn frustrating.

breakup blog #2. :[

2007-06-30T10:00:51Z

sometimes, the right thing simply isn't right.

pray for me, please. I broke things off with my live-in
boyfriend. and left town for two days. I'll be back tomorrow.
and I'm not looking forward to seeing him, side-stepping
him, and watching him pack his things and walk out
of my life. this is by far the hardest decision I have
ever had to make. he isn't ready to be with me or anyone
else. and no amount of love with change that.

sometimes loving someone simply isn't enough.
and simple isn't so simple afterall.

he bought me a wedding ring. and it's being shipped to my apartment.
I really don't know what to do with it. open it? I shouldn't, I know.
gracious. a "waste of money" he says now. I can't be guilted into
repairing things. I don't want to stop wearing the ring he got me when
he took me home to meet his family. a "waste of time" he says now.

I'm really very frustrated. he says he's thought of ending it all. and
the fact that he owns a gun doesn't thrill me in the least. I want him
to be okay. but no amount of little hobbit love can accomplish that.
and I couldn't wish more that it would. I always thought hobbit-love
was magical. but, in the end, I guess it's just a little bit short of the love
boys need to keep on their toes. pray for him, please. I'm hardly as
angry as I should be. I guess love softens the edges a bit sometimes...
but it makes the blows [when they come] a lot harder to handle.

I have to see him tomorrow. we have to sort through our things and separate them.

this is not a breakup. this is a divorce.

beforewecrash @ 2007-06-29T17:50:00

2007-06-30T00:54:13Z

I broke up with my boyfriend yesterday.

and I don't feel single AT ALL. I left town
right after I did it, and I'm not going
back until tomorrow. he'll be moved out
by the 5th and I couldn't feel more
miserable. I left my phone at home and
I'm freaking out because he's due to call.

I really miss him. I really love him.
but it's just not right. he's not ready
to date me. he isn't satisfied with himself.

he said some really mean things. and I just
couldn't let his behavior get swept under the rug again.

:[ I'm sad. I've been sad for a while.
I guess this is closure on saddness.
I just don't know.

"do you still love me or are you IN love with me?"
"both. very much both."

I couldn't talk then...and he's calling back.
I'm so scared. and so horribly horribly sad.

beforewecrash @ 2007-06-28T12:53:00

2007-06-28T19:53:49Z

beforewecrash @ 2007-06-27T18:34:00

2007-06-28T01:38:44Z

good news. some asshole blew out our
pilot light a few days ago. shitty city.

new layout. nothing special. ♥

getting this next year for school.
I want it now. right now. pretty please?

also. leave me comments. ♥

beforewecrash @ 2007-06-27T15:55:00

2007-06-27T22:55:38Z

my job is straight bullshit.

they sent me home because I'm not
on the schedule. and I'm not on this
schedule because my boss LOST the old one.

I can't afford to be out of work. :[

beforewecrash @ 2007-06-21T23:43:00

2007-06-22T06:41:37Z

it feels so nice to have plastic $$ in my hands again.
wamu is being gay about my debit card. :[ but at least
paypal is in line. soon I'll have $100 and won't have
to worry about hassling with my bank and cash.

these kittens are driving me batty.

beforewecrash @ 2007-06-21T16:19:00

2007-06-21T23:22:38Z

oh, it's been so long. I'm using an up-chucked
gateway until I can build/buy a new computer since
my laptop drowned. I'm sad. goodbye music. goodbye photos.

I need another version of PS. my disk is missing and
I can't afford to buy another copy. anybody got pirated
software they want to share? <3 I'm being impatient.

new favourite show. on my way to get episodes 2-3.

beforewecrash @ 2007-06-11T21:46:00

2007-06-12T04:48:01Z

alright kids. bad bad news.

the other day, after refusing to operate
or do anything BUT hibernate, a friend
of mine tipped my computer on it's side
and...water came pouring out. :[

and even the geek squad can't help. it
will end up taking more to repair dear
mildred than it will to replace her. I can
use my hard drive externally, but as for
having an operating machine, I'm out of luck.

it is a sad day for all.

THOUGH! I should be up and running within
the week, minus photoshop. I'm currently running
low-key off of coffee-shop internet.

CALL ME for PHOTOS!! I'll take 'em!
just ring the digits. [209] 747-0031.

I need money. gimme it! paypal!!
e-mail bailsohay8@msn.com

bah. people are fucking pretentious and rude
in trendy places like this. ARGHHHH. <3

beforewecrash @ 2007-05-27T15:54:00

2007-05-27T22:54:27Z

http://merovingian.org/birth/feist/let_it_die/gatekeeper.mp3

beforewecrash @ 2007-05-25T21:28:00

2007-05-26T04:29:05Z

kids!! I need music.

I need FEIST y GREGORY AND THE HAWK.

pretty please? I need something new. something...lovely.